Amy Winehouse's Unpublished Interview: Dreaming of Many Children and Believing She'd Die with Blake

An interview conducted just three days after Amy Winehouse married Blake Fielder-Civil in 2007 has finally been published. In the session with the Sunday Times, the singer of "Back to Black" revealed her desire to have many children and her belief that they would end their lives together. The marriage ended in divorce in 2009, two years before Amy died of alcohol poisoning.

In the conversation, Amy did not hide her desire to build a family. She said she was ready to put her music career on hold if she became pregnant. "We want to have many children. If I get pregnant, that's enough," she said. The statement contrasts with her public image as a star grappling with personal problems, while also showing a domestic side rarely exposed.

When asked whether she saw herself and Blake still together 30 years from then, Amy nodded and added, "I know we're going to die together." She also described love as a condition in which one does not want anyone else. Those sentences now read as a portrait of fragility hidden behind the glitter of Grammy awards.

In the interview, Amy also spoke about her mental health. She admitted to having a depressive personality but was reluctant to take medication or undergo therapy because of bad experiences in her teens. "I would never take medication. I did when I was young. I was up and down. I met a lot of people, therapy and so on. But I didn't like any of it. It's fine, I'm a musician. You tend to write down what you feel," she said.

She held the view that people who cannot help themselves cannot be helped. Even so, she was not absolutely opposed to therapy. "I'm not anti-therapy. If something works for you, it works," she added. The view reflects the attitude of a generation of musicians who grew up before mental health issues became a mainstream conversation, when seeking help was often seen as a sign of weakness.

"I know we're going to die together. We want to have many children. If I get pregnant, that's enough." — Amy Winehouse

Amy also responded to tabloid photos showing a white substance on her nose. She called the images fake and found them funny. "That's ridiculous. Clearly fake. I find it funny. They take a photo and then add something to my nose. It happened to my friends too," she said. She was not angry, even though her father, Mitch Winehouse, was furious and intended to call the newsroom. "My dad was very angry. He said this is outrageous. I said, 'Dad, there's nothing that can be done.'"

The disclosure shows how the tabloid media of the 2000s often treated young musicians as objects of sensation, not humans with vulnerabilities. Amy, who died at 27, became a symbol of what later came to be called the "27 Club" — a line of talented musicians who died too soon. The interview seems to be a complete portrait of a woman who wanted to be loved and to have a family, yet was trapped in the whirlpool of fame that demanded a certain image.

For the Indonesian music industry, Amy's story is a reminder that the psychological pressure behind the stage often goes unnoticed. Some artist managements in the country have begun adopting mental health support, though it has yet to become standard. Going forward, the question is: will the entertainment industry learn from tragedies like this, or will it keep sacrificing artists' well-being for sensation and profit?